Why I Write

Why do I write? That's funny, I often ask myself the same thing! I remember being a little girl, writing as early as I could write...and probably even before then...not that it made any sense. As I get a little bit older, I realize that the biggest reason I write now is to get it out. I have lots of made up stories that I keep saying I'm going to write a book about, but that never happens. What I do write about is my feelings in a journal. I find that a lot of the time, you feel like you have no one to talk to and no one listens even when you do talk to people. So I started writing it down again, in a little book that I keep hidden from the rest of the world. Whether it be my feelings, or a thought I had, or even something to do with my anxiety or happiness or what have you. If I'm feeling a certain way about someone or something, I have that in my mind when I write it and getting it all out there on paper, even if that person doesn't read it, is a big help! Sometimes it's good and sometimes it's bad. If I have any real strong feelings at all, or even scared, etc., I will write it down. It really does help!

Sometimes I write fictional stories, sometimes even in point form, just to get the thoughts and ideas out on the paper...some are OK and some are just terrible. Needless to say, they always come out one way or another. Sometimes I have some really great stories that I feel like a lot of people would read, but then again, I could just be biased. I'm not sure.

I always wanted to be a writer, too, always wondered what kind I could be. Whether it's fictional or non-fictional, it didn't matter, so long as I could get it written and people would read it and of course enjoy it. Sometimes maybe even relate to it.

I sometimes wonder if I should write an autobiography about certain parts of my life. There have been a few times that a lot of people would have looked at that situation and been like, wow, that girl needs a break, and other times when they'd look and be like, wow, she's just weird or crazy or whatever.

But still, I write it. Every hard time, every good time, every in between; if I have something to get out, I write it. Otherwise, I go to bed and my mind will not shut down at all. There is so much going on in there sometimes that I just really want to share it with someone. Writing helps that! It really does!

In elementary school, my favorite teacher would always tell me that some day she'll go to the book store and pick up a book and see that I was the author and no matter what was in it, she'd love it all the same because she thought my stories were wonderful; even when they needed a little bit of work, she would help, and push, and work with me until it was where it was supposed to be.

Writing is almost like reading; it takes me to a whole new world where I can ignore the rest of the world and just write it out and enjoy what I'm doing! Especially when I write the fictional ones. I feel like I'm right there with them.

I've got to write!

With that being said, I will continue to write and I know it will continue to help! Give it a try...even if it's a letter to someone that you throw away or burn later, it will help!