Not Fitting in Anywhere

This week I had only one good day. I never messed up any orders and I got everything right. Tuesday, I ended up sick with a bug and I'm still trying to recover from it.

Hired in March

In March, I was a runner-up for a managerial position, but I was turned down due to the fact I wasn't there that long. They gave it to a guy who looks college/high-school aged and he is the new shift manager at the place I work. He was all nice to me before he got the position and now he has been rude, and even pushy, that I shouldn't work over my clocking in and out time.

I had everyone give me nice comments in March. I got every order right, no sandwich had to be redone after the first couple of rounds of mixing up the orders, and getting everything prepped and ready to be taken out or put on a table in the lobby, I had it all down pat. I had no complaints and no problems working the line, or getting everything cleaned up and ready to go. People were happy to work with me, because I found stuff for myself to do and I did it without asking.

Problems in April

By the time the next month came around, I was starting to do deliveries and no one told me the rules of where it should deliver and where it shouldn't be delivered. We don't do orders north of King Street in Saint Augustine, and we go as far south as the subdivision Shores of Saint Augustine. We do use SR 207 and SR 312, but we don't go pass the Bridge of Lions or the 312 bridge and into Anastasia Island because that would be too far of a distance.

April was probably my worst month on the job. I messed up several orders and some of the deliveries I had forgotten some of the items printed out on the ticket. When I get back, they either said I should be sending out the sandwiches once they were ready to be eaten or taken out, or I should be cleaning down the bags and sweeping by the office to make sure that everyone was doing something.

There were times I was overwhelmed and confused and even angry at myself, because I didn't do something right the first time. I was always told do it right the first time and that if I make a mistake, repeating the same process over and over again would help prevent it in the future. Deliveries should take no more than twenty minutes max and that they should be done timely and accurately. There are more responsibilities put on the delivery people than on the people in the store who make the sandwiches and subs. You can easily fix a sandwich that asked for no mayo, than delivering the wrong sandwich to the wrong person and then having everyone remake it.

After we got a new shift manager, I was shifted around to different places one day, because I was either trying to catch up on line or just trying to find something that wasn't already checked off the list. I would hear him tell the other managers that he would never work with me again or that he wouldn't want to work with me if I was scheduled. Then it all started happening with the other people who shared the same work day with me. They didn't want to come in when they found out I was working there, nor did they want to be in the same line with me, because either I made the sandwiches too slow or I was catching up to speed when it was just turning around for lunch hour.

Should I stay or should I go?

I have one week to turn my behavior around, or else I am going to end up out of the job. I was told last night that my 90 day review is coming up and I am going to hear out of the mouth of the general manager of the store or the manager on duty whether or not I should hand in my name tag and shirts, or I can keep working there with the advice of keeping my head down and my mouth shut.

I know I feel like I have already let down my co-workers and everyone who works with me on their scheduled shift of the day. I am trying to get out of this viral infection and the mental funk I put myself in, so that way I can hold onto the job in the next year. But, now I know that I am on a thin line with everyone at the store, job hunting apparently is a priority and making sure I have another one lined up before the next tourist season is crucial.

My goal for this year is to keep one job for a whole year, even if I am starting to see the nastier side of some people where I work now, I have to trudge it and not let it sink under my skin. To hell or high water, pride and stubbornness are the few traits that often lead me to peril. But, hopefully I will find a good use for them at work.